I ain’t got time for you baby
Either you’re mine, or you’re not
Make up your mind sweet baby
Right here, right now’s all we got
A little party never killed nobody
So we gon’ dance until we drop, drop a little party never killed nobody Right here, right now’s all we got

There’s a topic that I can’t talk about because with the slightest thought of it will bring me to tears. I feel like I’m in denial about it but the days are getting closer & even though he’s only gonna be gone for a few months it still really sucks. The topic is my brother leaving to naval training & then being deported elsewhere. My little big brother is my best friend. He protects me. Being his older sister he took care of me in every way. When I would have nightmares I would run to his room to sleep with him. I would just feel safe. He took on the roll of man of the house too soon & had to grow up too fast & that’s something I wish I could of saved him from. My brother has the brightest future & I’m so proud of him. Even writing this now sitting at a bubble tea joint by myself is making me cry. I’m so proud to be his sister. Aside from my son my brother is my world. I honestly don’t ever need any man or even have a husband or get married as long as I have my little big brother & my son in my life to be there for me. That’s all I need. I don’t think there’s anyone out there who can be as proud of him as I am. I can’t give him the full security that I feel he deserves but what I can give him is unconditional love & a big little sister who is proud beyond words of the man he’s become.

Wrote 2 long posts in regards to you, but ended up discarding them.